argh

study; study; study makes me mad

but too bad, this is the sad life of a sec4 student. this holidays are going to be draining. no more overseas, no more camps. haiis. it seems like this holidays got nth to anticipate, to look forward to. but on the other hand, i hope because of this, it could seem to be longer. i seriously need time! i swear to make use of this june holidays. yes!putting aside whether to go jc or poly. but i want my results of quality first! by then, which ever my choice, is another matter.

although without much fun things to look forward to, i still have my mugging kakis, lol. went amk mac to chiong the hols hmwrk today. with pj, wt, ck, sophia, eileen.. it was quite effective for me though not in pj's opinion. -.- i was scolded by her numerous times today! grr.. she kept complaining im slow and lousy!

well, tmr is the 2nd and last remedial of the month. then, will be going CHANGI study with them agn on sat, but without the old ones this time. lol! cos wt will be in pulau ubin camping, lol! and the other two down at nj photoc course. HAHA! and pj's going to scold! she needs planning before scolding people! LOL! and she had already planned! LOL! so BEWARE! haha!

i hope this determination wld last right till the end of year! *pray*

im sort of in confusion now.

i dont understand what im thinking.
i dont know what i want to do.
i dont know what to do.

i dont understand what where did i go wrong.
which seem to frustrate people.
i know i was the cause.
but why?

maybe
i actually know the ans.
cause im now irritated by this me.

but
im real tired trying to act as if everythings alright.
i know things are going wrong.
and im sure you are aware as well.
its just that..

well,
hope that im just thinking too much.
or rather.
i just hope that everything is going to go on well.
without any conflicts and whatever.
not any single one.
studies is taxing enough.
i dont want this to drain my energy.

friendship plays a big part in my life.
i really treasure them.

time passed damn fast this year. the comp, the rod today, everything seems to be never coming even right at the start of the year. and tada. today was the real and final thing.

this also implys that its more and more focused on studies now. im scared. afraid of the way we need to study for the rest of the year. half a year passed. instead of getting better and better, my results are currently deteriorating. in fact, it seems to me, the harder i study, would only mean a greater disappointment ill get. im at a lost now.


ill promise to study. right when june hols start. so, stop forcing me now.

IM BLOGGING! after one month plus!

okay. THE PREPS ARE OVER! its like, finally! god. this is so so weird. its onli mid years and everyone was mugging like no tmr. it never happened to me before. mugging at this rate wld cause brain damage sooner or later! urgh.

whatever it is, its finally over. hah! i sound as if thats the Os. okay. i skipped sch for 2 consecutive days. due to the post exams activities. the time table looks simply retarded. 'sudoku', 'graphic calculator', 'BALLOON sculpting' and endless talks.. two whole days of these crap and nth else. wldnt it be better if its replaced by marking days? lol, but anyway, i still dint turn up. haha! but tis time, even my mother agrees that its redundant. LOL

stayed home rotting the two days. did loads of housework actually. the house was in a mess ever since my prep starts. okay. its mostly my fault, leaving piles of books and notes everywhere. oh. btw, the mid year was quite okay. except for chem. i think ill probly just scrape thru. it could be predicted, cos i dont even understand what im answering. geog and eng too. not finished.

its a time to relax now! haha! before the papers are back, and before the hols start, when intensive tuitions begin! gosh.